But it wasn’t always like that. I used to have horrible self-esteem, and still do on occasion. But I never looked at actresses or models and envied them. I really never let the press or anything like that influence how I felt about my self. No the person that led to me have such a bad self esteem was/is my sister.
She never did it on purpose. She probably doesn’t even know about it. Actually a boy (along with a couple others) I met freshmen year in high school did it. Everyday he came up to me and asked me to tell my sister that she was hot, or to give her his number.
How do you think it feels to hear how hot your sister is every single day of freshman year by multiple boys, and never once have a single boy tell you how hot or beautiful you are.
So every so often I suddenly get such a bad image of myself. She was just always a little prettier than me, I’ve always thought. One inch taller, one cup size bigger, one pants size smaller.
I could have stayed at my boyfriends place for the rest of the week and get him prepared for harry potter. He actually started watching them with me. He started with the 4th movie but w/e its a start. I just got back to school, where the other girls never connected a cable to the TV got a cable for the TV, so i cant even finish watching it. I miss my bubbie a whole lot right now. =[